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Here again in this soulless place

No hope here, only process and shame

The ritual starts again, eyes gazing at others

Yes, my time arrives — bureaucracy at the ready

Read here, sign that, do you have the form?

A voice behind, a murmur erupts

Helplessness rises, tension grows;

I try to ignore, I just have to get out

Sign the form — bureaucracy done

Free for another two weeks, to make my own way

Emerging from the soulless place

Light splashes onto my eyes and I squint

The tension slows, the relief builds

I can be myself again, search for my own path

My own place in the world

October 2011

Reflections on LGBTQ+ life and experiences playing club cricket in England — the only Aussie + gay cricketer at the club! Contact: lachlantsmith@gmail.com

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